Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Grow Baby Grow! A Prayer Request

I am still here and waiting for my baby to arrive - just 5 days to go to the date (20th Dec) which is marked on my file as the EDD (revised). I'm having a small baby - I have always known that - I have small babies but last week at my antenatal visit the doctor expressed some concern that the baby is possibly too small and has booked me in for a scan tomorrow - I had to wait a week for an appointment, such is the pressure on health services in NSW. I am officially 'small for dates' and I know what that means - I have been through this before when my second child was determined to be SFD because I had lost a kilo in weight midway through my pregnancy and was several cms behind with the tape measure on the tummy. I was sent off to see the obstetrician and subjected to several scans and the term moderate IUGR (intra uterine growth retardation) was marked across my file.

During that pregnancy, just like this one, I had perfect blood pressure and an active baby. I was allowed to go overdue and in the last 10 days my little daughter grew some more and became a ASB (an anatomically small baby) which is what she was all along - just a small baby. Following a 6 hour natural labour I gave birth to my little girl who weighed in at 6lbs - she was in perfect health.

My next baby was my heavy weight at 7lbs 12oz - my biggest baby! My boys had weighed in at 6lbs 120z and 6lbs 6oz respectively. My twin girls were born at 38 weeks - 5lbs and 5lbs 30z, small but like all my others perfectly healthy. I had been warned that twins were more prone to infection, likely to be sickly and suffer from possible developmental issues such as speech delay. My tiny girls have been my healthiest children - they have never been to the doctor for reasons of illness. And as for the speech delay - I am often to be heard saying to them 'You talk too much' and 'You know too many words! They are now eagerly anticipating the arrival of their new sibling and pray every day for the 'baby to come out'!

As you can see from this photo below, I am very much a slim girl and always have been. I hated the word 'skinny'. I have become used to the comments over the years such as 'Look at those arms - there is not an ounce of fat on you.' ' Have some more cake Ann - we need to fatten you up.' I'm more than happy to have a second slice of cake but it does not make much difference. I do not put on weight except during pregnancy and that is the only time when I go over 50 kilos! All the weight I put on is the baby and its support system - no extra fat and when the baby is born, the weight drops off - within days!

I'm not sharing this to make you envious, just to let you know this is me and although there are many benefits - I enjoy good health, low blood pressure, have good energy levels and can wear my teenage daughter's clothes, buy age 14 clothes from the girls clothing range at Target and wear size 6 jeans- there are some drawbacks, such as what I am going through now. I always measure behind and so do my children - I stopped weighing my babies after my third - my babies were always at the bottom of the chart in their Plunket books (a kiwi icon) - then I found out the statistics used for the measurements were outdated and came from an era when many babies were bottle fed and also took into account New Zealand's Maori and Pacific Island population. I decided to trust my motherly instincts, breastfed all my babies on demand knowing I was giving them the best start in life and 'tuned out' to the comments which inevitably came my way 'Oh she is so tiny', 'Look at those skinny legs' and my favourite ' Is that a doll or a baby?'!!!

I know I do not put up too many photos of me - I don't pose for the camera that often but I decided to make an exception on this occasion!

Olive Oyl was the term of endearment used by my dad for me when I was a young girl and when I celebrated my 40th Birthday it seemed appropriate to have Olive on the invitations! When I was a teenager he called me 'Twiggy' after the iconic model from the 60's. When I left the house he warned me to watch out for grids in the gutters in case I slipped through! ( A typical Liverpudlian sense of humour!) Now if you can imagine Olive with a little, compact baby bump, you can picture me - the figure not the face and I'm not tall like Olive who was seriously lanky!

I never intended this post to be humorous but could not resist slipping in that picture of Olive into a blog post! I would really appreciate your prayers because there is always that worry in the back of my mind - 'what if the baby is really very small - is the placenta still working properly? Will they want to induce me (with Christmas just around the corner this is one concern for me - that they will want my baby born before everyone goes on leave) or will they give me the extra days for the baby to grow some more and be born when it is ready?' The scan will of course reveal this and my husband is sure that the baby is just fine - he feels the kicks and the squirms - it seems every time a worry niggles me, the baby wriggles and I know movements and plenty of them are one of the best signs of all.

So this is my prayer 'Grow Baby Grow' and I wonder if this header I used for my poem about the commercialization of Christmas in any way prophetic?! Do go and read 'The Big Red Store' at my Christmas blog if you have not already! I seriously didn't think about what the ad said until I had posted it!

Thank you for all your kind comments and I truly appreciate your prayers. I'm signing off now and going to eat a few more bananas for morning tea!

With love and joy and anticipation of a Christmas delivery!



Farming On Faith said...

Dearest Ann~
I am praying and have been for the past month. I am praying your sweet baby will grow!
Ashley received your package today. She was so excited and she was thrilled with your gifts. Thank you so much for loving my girl. What a blessing you have been to her. I pray a special blessing for being such a blessing to us!
Know you are being covered in much prayer!
Love & Prayers~

Suzanne said...

Praying for you Ann! I was a small baby too--barely 5 lbs and quite healthy:-)

Joolz said...

Hello Ann

Best wishes in the coming days for a safe, healthy delivery - I'm sure the baby will be just the right size and perfect too! How exciting for you all!

Cheers - Joolz

Anonymous said...

Dear Ann, I will be praying for you and that your baby will grow. I am sure everything will be fine. I have seen it all before where Dr's have been concerned that a baby is too big or too small and then it all turns out well. Angela

A Bite of Country Cupcakes said...

All the best Ann....I had a similar situation and Bub was fine and not so small afterall,Those concerns are normal But In God we trust.
Resy easy and eat up!

Enchanted Moments said...

Sweet girl, rest a-plenty, sleep when you can...eat healthy and trust your instincts...not long to go now...they are all a mystery ( even to doctors!!! I think...) until they come out......even if it is a dear little one, it will catch up with lots of loving and breastmilk...........best wishes to you and all your family xxxx
(Nice to know of "feed on request mummies...")

SF said...

Hooray, a photo of you!! Now when you pull into my driveway I will recognise you! :)
Everyone certainly has fears and doubts when carrying little ones, but you are right - listen to those instincts and trust in the One who has made this precious baby. All will be well. I will be praying for growth and health and strength of this little boy or girl.
SO looking forward to news!!
Love, Saminda xo

Farmgirl Cyn said...

I am so excited for you! I am sure you and baby are just fine, and will pray that baby grows as he/she is supposed to! How very fortunate you are to be able to maintain a healthy weight all this time! I am indeed a bit jealous!

Jen said...

I am sure your baby will be just perfect in every way, perfect for you and your husband, perfect for your family, because this is the baby God designed for you.

Best wishes
Jen in NSW

Beth said...

Oh my goodness...I have had exactly the opposite problem! Chunkiness abounds with me! My babies were large...my largest was 9lbs 3oz.
My third child had to have forceps to aid her birth. If I look at food, I gain weight.
Very scary for blood pressure and such!
I will be praying for you and excitedly waiting for your news of your little one!
Blessings on YOUR Christmas baby!

SF said...

I am waiting for news Ann - any news?!!

Beth said...

Hmmmm....I am wondering wondering and wondering...any baby yet???? I just got home from work and said to my husband "I've got to see if Ann has had her baby yet!!!"
Hope you are well!!

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